Is being alive enough to be happy?
These are the last moments of a dying man. Last breaths, last wanderings, last copings with last fears. A last walk down temporary memory lane.
We are all temporary – our being here is temporary – but we harshly feel it only in our last moments. This song is about death – about the fear of death – about my own fear of dying. Cheerful topic!
“Being alive is enough to be happy” – an autosuggestion I try to use on a daily basis. Naturally, it doesn’t always work. Actually, it hardly works. For although, since last I checked, I AM alive, that fact alone rarely makes me happy – and I sadly need more. Much more!
I’m no Gandhi. I have no chance to be ‘a Gandhi’. I do my best to be the best version of myself, and hope that’ll be enough for the long run. Meanwhile, I’ll keep repeating the mantra: because “rarely works” still means that there ARE times it WORKS. Worth it.
Today was, is, a great day.
Not just because I’ve FINALLY finished the illustrations & animation for the video (haha! ha), but also because publishing the video for you to see is a HUGE moment for me. My soul is on the plate once again, and it gives me the goosebumps. In a good way.
There are a lot of moments I feel meaningless. A tiny creature on a tiny world, in the middle of.. well not even in the middle of! There is no middle of! That’s depressing. Ok then. Somewhere in an endless universe that couldn’t care less about me. Who am I anyway? Who the f cares? It means nothing. For the short while I’m here, I better find and hold on to meaningful moments. Little moments that make me feel alive. I want more of them. As much as possible. So I create tiny moments of life – like this one – for me, hopefully for you and for every person I can reach. Because tiny is the ‘now’. And tiny is actually huge.
OK! Thanks for reading my rambles ;P